it was time for a change, sooo...I HAVE A NEW XANGA..so i think im going to shut this one down. the new one is.. www.xanga.com/A_HazelKiss

i suggest that everyone checks it out, bc it is cool, and i think you will like it. hehehe

i'm not even going to say who i got this from, because everyone has it, and being the original leader that i am, i suppose i will do it too!

A - Age of first real kiss: hmm. 13 i think.

B - Band listening to right now: THE FOO FIGHTERS!!! (in the process of downloading a whole bunch of music)

C - Crush:  boys have coodies. hahaha..idk?

D - Dad's name: Francis Joseph Perry Jr.

E - Easiest person to talk to: my mommy.  

F - Favorite bands at the moment: the foo fighters, yellowcard, fall out boys, no doubt, taking back sunday

G - Gummy worms or gummy bears: Worms

H - Hometown: Massena, Born and Raised

I - Instruments: im not that talented. 

J- Junior High: J.W. Leary

K - Kids you wanna have: 5. at least. girls and boys, and maybe like twins or triplets.

L - Longest car ride ever: Charleston, South Carolina

M - Mom's name: Gretchen Ann (cook) Perry

N - Nicknames: Jayda, Jay Jord, Jordo, Jay, Jake, Jorgen.

O - One wish: i wish i had all the answers.

P - Phobia[s]: i loathe the dark. i dont really like reptiles. and im petrified of heights.

Q - Quote: "in life, we have two options, both physically and mentally, give up, or fight like hell." and "if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say anything at all" --the thumper rule.

R - Reasons to smile: my awesome friends, my family, passing everything, finally knowing what i might want to do with my life, SUMMER, life itself makes me smile..and the big man upstairs.

S - Song: Just a Girl, Hear you Me, Best of You.

T - Time you woke up [today]: like 9:40 something.

U - Unknown fact about me: i used to be wicked OCD, and i have panick attacks. (yeah, im a loser!)

V - Vegetable you hate: i dont really like carrots, but spinach just crossed the line.

W - Worst habit(s): im a huge procrastinator, and i am seriously the most indecisive person you will ever meet. saying the words like and wicked.

X - X-rays you've had: umm, i got my bumm x-rayed when i broke my tailbone, my back, my ankle, and i got these weird stomach X-rays when they were testing me for stomach problems.

Y - Yummy food: WATERMELON!! and jrecks. 

Z - zodiac sign: Taurus.

oo and ps..i passed everything! even my glonal regents which i didnt finish.. thank you lord. the only thing is, i passed the chem regents, but failed the class by one point, so my mom and i decided that i would just take my regents credit, and get a different science credit, instead of taking it over..

i want to do an entry with just pictures on it..but that will take me a while, and im too lazy at the moment. i guess that is what happens when you take two finals in one day.. blahh..but at least i get a day off tomorrow, and then spanish friday, and then global tuesday, and then chem wednesday..then im done. and it will be Summer '05. i can't even say it will finally be summer 05 because the year just flew by so quickly. i can't believe im already done two finals (both really easy) and now all i have left are my three regents. its soo weird. my schedule seems pretty nice for next year..i cant wait to be a junior. last weekend jesse plowed Dj and I in red rover and now its war..Jesse Fregoe, i will get you, and kick your butt (and give you a bruise like mine)..you dont think i want any of that? well you couldnt handle my furouciousness. my right arm muscle is getting huge.

so a lot is going on right now..and im under a lot ot stress and i guess im just kind of overwhealmed. but a lot happened these past 2 days, and i'm just upset about it. i wish things weren't so hard sometimes. especially the things that you know you have to do (for your own happiness, and because you know it's right) but it still hurts so bad.

holy. where did the time ago? its like, just yesterday i was fighting with wayne about how summer dominated winter, and the green green grass would soon be here, and poof! it is! soo weird. school is almost over. tomorrow is my last wednesday of my sophomore year, we cant bring bookbags to school already! anndd.. i took my spanish speaking test and everything! (which, by the way, i think i did really well on!)  we started our critical lens essays in english yesterday, and will be working on it for the rest of the week, as part of our final. holy...finals they are coming up soo soon! i have three regents this year..yikes.. spanish, global, and chem. im sure i will be fine though.. or i hope so at least (please pray for me!)  i have my math and english finals on the first day of testing! ahh..! tomorrow we have a decipleship meeting, i think its the last one (sadly)..were going mini putting.. it should definately be fun!  tonight was my first night off in a long time..it was soo nice to just be able to get some things done around the house, and just hang out! i havn't done that in a while, and i wont be able to again, until finals are done most likely. well, i hope all is well with everyone else! and i hope everyone is totally enjoying this weather.. ( I DEFINATELY LOVE IT!)

               ..Change, (good things are happening)..

some things to think about..

doesn't anybody know how to walk anymore
doesn't anybody know what a radio is for
doesn't anybody wear their hair down low
doesn't anybody know? doesn't anybody know
doesn't anybody hate it when the street light.. turns red
doesn't anybody want five more minutes in bed
doesn't anybody, doesnt anybody have a letter to send
doesn't anybody wish to have just one more friend
cause eveybody wants, and everybody needs
everybody asks for one more piece
everybody wants to hear someone say please
cause everybody takes, and everybody steals
everybody cries when somethings feels
everybody is looking for the drug that heals
cause everybody wants, and everybody needs
everybody begs for self esteem
why don't you get your mind out of the past
and everybody takes and everybody steals
everybody's been kicked by other heels.... Stabilo Boss

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E Unum Pluribus, by Sara Guillian

"She's an artist of sorts, with brushes and paints, but she doesn't use canvas, It's opinion she tainits.

Around certain friends She paints on a grin, so she can be popular, so she can fit in.

With other friends, She's loud and obscene. It's the aim of the game to be rowdy and mean.

Close to her family, She's quiet and shy. They hardly take notice, If she is nearby.

When she's with the guys, She's a tease and a flirt, She gives and she gives, Ignoring the hurt.

The people nearby her, They hope and they pray, That they could be popular, Like her one day.

But when she's alone, She breaks down and cries, For there is no answer, when she asks, "Who Am I?"
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Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
And today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Is it everything you’ve dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger
and you had everything to lose...Switchfoot

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What would you think of me now
so lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
So what would you think of me now
so lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance.. Jimmy Eat World

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And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me... Simple Plan

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so..Adam preached today. he preached about "lifeboats and circus monkeys".. haha. sounds odd, but it actually made a lot of sense.and it definately hit home. it was about how you cant always worry about "being at the front of the line" and worry about how others view you all the time. and for me, this seems to be a day to day struggle. idk. i guess i just need to let the others stay in the life boat, and save myself? haha.. i guess you would have to be there today to understand what i mean. but to me, it made me wake up and realize, wow... i really can't continue to do what i'm doing. i've got a lot of changes to make.

relay for life was friday. it was amazing. im definately very proud of my team, and everyone else who participated. thanks guys..